Self Doubt, Self Preservation, Procrastination, and my Dog

I've been feeling a bit under the weather lately, not sure if it's, yet another cold or just allergies that continue to plaque me. Either way, I've had a throbbing headache, sore throat, my chest is tight, I'm tired, and just general not feeling too great, since about Monday.  I woke up this morning and felt like total crap!!! I got dressed anyway, and drug myself to the gym.  I hacked and coughed and tried to jog.  It didn't go completely horrible but this little voice in my head kept telling me "You are sick, maybe you should NOT be trudging along on this stupid treadmill!!" This is the point where I have to try and decide if this is Self Doubt rearing her ugly head again, giving me a reason to quit.  I haven't been doing great lately and it's been bringing me down just a bit.  I'm not a very patient person and getting back into shape is a very slow process, especially for me!! So is Self Doubt speaking to me or is this her close friend Self Preservation??? These two girls tend to hang out in the same "mean girl" club. I believe Self  Preservation is a much better being than the rest of her negative friends, but still, it's hard to trust her, sometimes she is NOT coming from an entirely helpful place, she does not always have your best interests at heart.  So is Self Preservation telling me the truth, when she says "You are sick, rest! This is not the BEST thing for your immune system, you are just going to get totally worn down and more sick.  You know that's how it goes with you, don't overdue it!" She may be right, and trying to look out for me, or she may be in league with her mean girl friend Self Doubt, I'm just not sure.  So, I did what I could...
5 minute warm up walk
10 min jog
3 min walk
8 min jog
3 min walk
4 min jog
5 min walk
3 min cool down walk
To be totally honest, I do feel a bit better. Maybe the exercise was good for me, or maybe it was the caffeine from the ice tea I got at Right Way Nutrition after the work out.

I am so glad it's finally getting light out early enough that very soon I can take this exercise thing BACK OUTSIDE.  I think I need a serious change of pace!!!

Learning yet another Life Lesson about Procrastination this week!!! I haven't uploaded pics from my computer to an internet site, or ordered any pics since March 24.  And I've taken a shit ton of pics since then.  Tough and time consuming catching up on that process.  Can't get Project Life caught back up until pics are uploaded, ordered, printed, and picked up!! WILL finish this task TODAY, if I have to pull an all~nighter!!!! I think this falls under the category of  "I wish to RECLAIM some order in my life." the first resolution on my list for 2012. OH well, it's done and now I must play catch up.
Maybe less time at the barn with Maddy and more time at the computer. But I just love that it's finally Spring! It's hard to stay inside when it's been yucky and cold or snowy for months!!!

4-H work session at Fairgrounds.

Our dog Alex Marie~ or Ali as we call her, has been acting very strange for the last week or so.  We have been trying to decide if she is not feeling well, if she is just freaking out about the whole room moving process, if it's a combination of all these things or what her deal is. In the Old Small Studio space she would always come in and hang out with me, most of the time being right in the way.  She doesn't seem to like being upstairs in the New Studio space.  Some strange, haunting type events have happened in our upstairs in the years we've lived here, so maybe THAT is why she won't come up, I don't know.  Regardless, she is being just strange.  Last night, I called her up and got her to lay down on the Futon.  So far she seems to like it there.  She still isn't sleeping soundly, in case I leave the room, but at least she is hanging out.  I'm glad she is staying, it's weird NOT having her company, and this way I can keep an eye on her too, in case she is sick. Dogs, kids, if it's not one thing it's another...