Week3Day1 and The Big Question

This morning I managed to drag myself out of bed and off to the gym.  It took a lot of effort.  My energy level was very low. But I did it.  I kept the appointment I made with myself. I realized that if you take 3 days off, it's very easy to become tired and lethargic. Hopefully I won't have to change my schedule back and forth again, but if I do, I think I will try to put in an extra day, as opposed to taking 3 straight days off.

Today was Week3Day1 {60Days until 5K run}
.5 incline, run speed 5.0mphs
 5 minute warmup walk
two repetitions of Jog for 90 secs; walk for 90
run for 3 min; walk for 3 min
5 min cool down walk

I won't lie, I didn't do anymore than the program called for-well I walked for 2 extra minutes, cuz I wanted to end on 30 minutes, so I did my 30 minutes and I was off that treadmill!!! I just wasn't feeling it today.  Maybe Thursday I will have more energy, and ambition, but not today!!!  I'm happy to be maintaining the speed of 5.0mphs on the slight incline.  {I hope someday to be able to ramp it up to 6.0mphs at 1.0 incline, but I think that is a goal best left for after managing to Run/Survive the entire 5K in August.} I can not believe how hard it is to run for 3 stinking minutes at a time.  I wonder if it's just me or are there other fat girls out there who have taken on this challenge and found it to be this difficult??


The big question is...
If I could travel back in time and talk to younger me, I wonder would I tell her to NOT let herself get this fat and out of shape??? Right now, in this moment I think YES! I would tell her that, cuz I'm tired of working this hard.  I'm tired of my knees and hips hurting.  I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of my clothes not fitting me right.  Health and fitness would be so much easier if it were maintained your entire life.
But at the end of the day, when I look at this experience as a whole, I think I will feel differently about it.  I am a big believer that everything happens for a reason, so NO maybe I wouldn't go back and tell her that. I think there is a valuable life lesson in this and I may need to figure out what it is.

I think that is a question I will revisit when I reach the end of this journey...  Stay tuned, the answer will come in another 60 days!!!