Today I did NOT WANT to get up!!! I took Sunday off and Monday, and I was actually considering taking today off as well. I even laid there in bed for an extra half hour trying to go back to sleep, so I'd have an excuse for NOT getting up and going to the gym. But then I thought about all those people who have been standing behind me pushing me or supporting me, and I thought, why should I disappoint them, as well as myself!!!! I thought about my friend Sheri Brecht, how she has worked hard at losing 30lbs and managed to keep it off as well. I thought about how awesome SHE has been in supporting ME. And I thought about how just yesterday she declared to the entire facebook world {now that's bravery!!} that she is getting back at it and going to work toward finishing her goal of 40lbs lost. Even though she looks great, she's going to finish this thing she started. And I decided, what kind of friend would I be to her if I stayed in bed and skipped another day??? When I struggle to continue running I think about the people out there in my life, like Sheri who are supporting me and encouraging me. Without them I may not have made it, so who am I to give up??? Shouldn't I keep going to prove me right and them right. If I quit, what am I saying to them...
I forced myself to get out of bed, and drug myself to the gym.
And today I ran, and I ran for you SHERI BRECHT!!!! I ran to say thank you. I ran to say, you can do this girl!! I ran, cuz I'm not a quitter, and neither are you!!!
Wanna know some of the other strange things I think about to motivate myself to run??? Ah let's save that for another day. Today we honor Sheri, and her goals!!! Once again Thank you Sheri and good luck to you!!! You know I'm with ya!!!
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Lane Walker 5K
So, by now my faithful readers, all 5 of you, have realized that I am a big old dork!! And today's post will not disappoint in the dork department!!!
Yesterday, was a day of many mixed emotions. Woke up to a beautiful sunrise, which quickly turned into a freezing cold day of steady rain, and THAT was just the beginning...
Let's start with talking about the Lane Walker 5K fun run/walk
I have a couple of friends who are very involved with this organization, Sheri, Jamie, Aly! So last year when Sheri told me about the run/walk I signed up and walked it. {I'm not sure what my time was, but it was a train wreck} The cool thing is, this has become an annual event and I will be signing up every year. It's a fundraiser, and a good cause. Being a fundraising event I think they did a really good job. They had awesome prizes for the winners, and door prizes. Because it's a charity event I will continue running it every year, and promoting it to who ever I can. It's kind of cool to think that I will always be able to see my personal improvement from year to year, at this event. I think it went really well this year, especially considering the weather!!! If you are looking for an event to join, consider this one!!!
One thing I've decided for sure is that I will NOT be pre-registering for anymore events, every time I do the weather sucks!!! Well EXCEPT for the Lane Walker event, even if I had decided not to walk becuz of the weather, I'm glad to support this event.
On to the personal side of things...
I can't say I did great, I can't even say I enjoyed the run, I did not!! It was cold, my joints hurt, my muscles hurt, I was soaking wet. BUT, on the flip side there were some really cool things that happened. I managed a Personal Best time of 39:54. {This being a smaller event didn't have the fancy timers that start when YOU personally cross the start line and then stop when YOU personally cross the finish line, so the clock starts when the group leaves. Becuz my daughter and her friend were a bit late getting there, I was still inside the building and behind ALL the walkers when the event started, so I am not sure this time is completely accurate. ~Not that this is a big deal it's NOT I'm just saying I think my time was a bit better than that.}
Not only is this a personal best for me, but I RAN the entire event!!
In May I did the Highland Festival 5K, and my time was 49:07 so that's a HUGE improvement!!!
BUT the best part of all of this was the huge outpouring of support I got from friends and family members!!
I got some really touching and thoughtful comments via facebook. And I even had the Shake of the Day chosen in my honor {Chocolate Overload~of course!} at Right Way Nutrition!! They had 15 people come out and run, that's sooo cool!!
Then when I got to the end of the race, what do I see, but my kids standing there at the finish waiting for me. Tallon of course giving me the get moving wave!!! And I was moving slow at the end. Ryan had to be gone Saturday, but called within about 10 minutes of me finishing the race. He was there in spirit, at about 2 miles he started singing to me!!!LOL!!!
Later we headed off to a family wedding reception, where several people asked how it went and I got several compliments on how much weight I've lost. While I know I have a long way to go and a lot of hard work to do, it's nice to have people tell you that you look good.
~I would like to take a second to say thank you to all of those people who supported me during this whole crazy year!! Thank you for believing that I could do this. even when I didn't. Thanks for all the words of encouragement and thank you for showing up to read this blog and about my crazy journey!! You all have NO IDEA how much your support has meant to me and how much it helps me to continue when I feel like quitting!!
After the run I was considering NEVER getting on a tread mill again, but this morning I woke up and decided that I will continue on!!! I may even consider upping the bar a bit. Maybe next year by this time a 10K, or a half marathon... we will see!!
I should also take a second to congratulate both my kids on their excellent runs. Maddy finished 5th, her friend Taylor finished 6th, and Tallon finished 1st{he won the race last year also}. I'm proud of all of them, but at this particular moment I think I'm most proud of Tallon. Tallon has worked really hard and put a lot of miles on, and changed his whole diet. In the past 3yrs he has lost 62lbs and looks great. He works really hard in the gym!!! Next week Maddy and Taylor are running their first Half Marathon, so good luck to them!!
Yesterday, was a day of many mixed emotions. Woke up to a beautiful sunrise, which quickly turned into a freezing cold day of steady rain, and THAT was just the beginning...
Let's start with talking about the Lane Walker 5K fun run/walk
I have a couple of friends who are very involved with this organization, Sheri, Jamie, Aly! So last year when Sheri told me about the run/walk I signed up and walked it. {I'm not sure what my time was, but it was a train wreck} The cool thing is, this has become an annual event and I will be signing up every year. It's a fundraiser, and a good cause. Being a fundraising event I think they did a really good job. They had awesome prizes for the winners, and door prizes. Because it's a charity event I will continue running it every year, and promoting it to who ever I can. It's kind of cool to think that I will always be able to see my personal improvement from year to year, at this event. I think it went really well this year, especially considering the weather!!! If you are looking for an event to join, consider this one!!!
One thing I've decided for sure is that I will NOT be pre-registering for anymore events, every time I do the weather sucks!!! Well EXCEPT for the Lane Walker event, even if I had decided not to walk becuz of the weather, I'm glad to support this event.
On to the personal side of things...
I can't say I did great, I can't even say I enjoyed the run, I did not!! It was cold, my joints hurt, my muscles hurt, I was soaking wet. BUT, on the flip side there were some really cool things that happened. I managed a Personal Best time of 39:54. {This being a smaller event didn't have the fancy timers that start when YOU personally cross the start line and then stop when YOU personally cross the finish line, so the clock starts when the group leaves. Becuz my daughter and her friend were a bit late getting there, I was still inside the building and behind ALL the walkers when the event started, so I am not sure this time is completely accurate. ~Not that this is a big deal it's NOT I'm just saying I think my time was a bit better than that.}
Not only is this a personal best for me, but I RAN the entire event!!
In May I did the Highland Festival 5K, and my time was 49:07 so that's a HUGE improvement!!!
BUT the best part of all of this was the huge outpouring of support I got from friends and family members!!
I got some really touching and thoughtful comments via facebook. And I even had the Shake of the Day chosen in my honor {Chocolate Overload~of course!} at Right Way Nutrition!! They had 15 people come out and run, that's sooo cool!!
Then when I got to the end of the race, what do I see, but my kids standing there at the finish waiting for me. Tallon of course giving me the get moving wave!!! And I was moving slow at the end. Ryan had to be gone Saturday, but called within about 10 minutes of me finishing the race. He was there in spirit, at about 2 miles he started singing to me!!!LOL!!!
Later we headed off to a family wedding reception, where several people asked how it went and I got several compliments on how much weight I've lost. While I know I have a long way to go and a lot of hard work to do, it's nice to have people tell you that you look good.
~I would like to take a second to say thank you to all of those people who supported me during this whole crazy year!! Thank you for believing that I could do this. even when I didn't. Thanks for all the words of encouragement and thank you for showing up to read this blog and about my crazy journey!! You all have NO IDEA how much your support has meant to me and how much it helps me to continue when I feel like quitting!!
After the run I was considering NEVER getting on a tread mill again, but this morning I woke up and decided that I will continue on!!! I may even consider upping the bar a bit. Maybe next year by this time a 10K, or a half marathon... we will see!!
I should also take a second to congratulate both my kids on their excellent runs. Maddy finished 5th, her friend Taylor finished 6th, and Tallon finished 1st{he won the race last year also}. I'm proud of all of them, but at this particular moment I think I'm most proud of Tallon. Tallon has worked really hard and put a lot of miles on, and changed his whole diet. In the past 3yrs he has lost 62lbs and looks great. He works really hard in the gym!!! Next week Maddy and Taylor are running their first Half Marathon, so good luck to them!!
Saturday, October 13, 2012
It's 5K Day!!
Hey everybody!!
Yeah, it's been forever since I've posted, I know. It's been a bit crazy. But we will get to that in another post.
Today I'm here to talk about today's 5K...
It has been ONE whole year since I walked my very first 5K. ONE long, hard year!! Hopefully the first one will be much different than today's. I'm actually looking forward to this run, despite the fact that it's only 35degrees and they are predicting rain. Since I last posted, I've buckled down a bit, I've managed, not only to be able to run 3.1, but I have gone as far as 4.1 miles once. I know pretty exciting stuff huh!!! I'm at a grand total of 40lbs lost too. I know the weight loss was never part of the goal, but it's pretty fantastic too, not gonna lie!! The goal today is to run this thing in under 40 minutes, yeah, I'm still just THAT slow!!! It's okay, one goal at a time!! I'm trying to think of some great profound things to say about my year+ of training, or my ONE year 5K anniversary landmark, but I'm coming up blank. So you know what that means... yep, we talk about the music!!
My play list is ready...
Worlds Collide ~Apocalyptica
One Day Remains ~Alter Bridge
A Warrior's Call ~Volbeat
Magic Zone ~Volbeat
Road of Determination ~Nervz End
Plunge Into Darkness ~In Existence
Driven ~ Nervz End
Metalingus ~Alter Bridge
Breath Again ~Alter Bridge
Stroke ~Apocalyptica
Yep, there it is!! By now you all know that I choose my music cuz it motivates me, and yes, I take it all a bit too literal, but that's what makes me the coocky person you come here to read about!! So in a nut shell here's how it breaks down for me...
~Cuz I see in you more than you'll ever know
and I ask you would you question the strength inside
and you need to know how it feels to be alive
~Feel the fire, he's entering the ring,
his mindset only knows how to win
~I'm down on my tail, but I'm up and I can feel it again
angels wings unfold and the devils sitting moaning alone
I've been down, but I'm up and I can feel it again
I'm back in the magic zone
~I will not fall to my knees for something NOT worked for
All my pride and my soul, sweat for this all
I will climb to the top with my own bare hands
I will not fall to my knees anymore
~plunge into darkness one more time
only to find the colors that shine
for the hole is full of something
~You've got to stay Driven
well past your time
see the end to a life long dream
make it happen today
~On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter palce and a broken dream
and we'll leave it all behind
On this day it's so real to me
everything has come to life
another chance to chase a dream
another chance to feel, a chance to feel alive
~In the silence of my heart there is a distance call
it beckons me stand apart
So I set out on my own
just to breath again
touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breath again
YEP!! that's it!! I'm off to the races!! I'll see you at the finish line and we'll talk about how this whole thing went down next time!!! Wish me LUCK, I'm gonna need it!!
Yeah, it's been forever since I've posted, I know. It's been a bit crazy. But we will get to that in another post.
Today I'm here to talk about today's 5K...
It has been ONE whole year since I walked my very first 5K. ONE long, hard year!! Hopefully the first one will be much different than today's. I'm actually looking forward to this run, despite the fact that it's only 35degrees and they are predicting rain. Since I last posted, I've buckled down a bit, I've managed, not only to be able to run 3.1, but I have gone as far as 4.1 miles once. I know pretty exciting stuff huh!!! I'm at a grand total of 40lbs lost too. I know the weight loss was never part of the goal, but it's pretty fantastic too, not gonna lie!! The goal today is to run this thing in under 40 minutes, yeah, I'm still just THAT slow!!! It's okay, one goal at a time!! I'm trying to think of some great profound things to say about my year+ of training, or my ONE year 5K anniversary landmark, but I'm coming up blank. So you know what that means... yep, we talk about the music!!
My play list is ready...
Worlds Collide ~Apocalyptica
One Day Remains ~Alter Bridge
A Warrior's Call ~Volbeat
Magic Zone ~Volbeat
Road of Determination ~Nervz End
Plunge Into Darkness ~In Existence
Driven ~ Nervz End
Metalingus ~Alter Bridge
Breath Again ~Alter Bridge
Stroke ~Apocalyptica
Yep, there it is!! By now you all know that I choose my music cuz it motivates me, and yes, I take it all a bit too literal, but that's what makes me the coocky person you come here to read about!! So in a nut shell here's how it breaks down for me...
~Cuz I see in you more than you'll ever know
and I ask you would you question the strength inside
and you need to know how it feels to be alive
~Feel the fire, he's entering the ring,
his mindset only knows how to win
~I'm down on my tail, but I'm up and I can feel it again
angels wings unfold and the devils sitting moaning alone
I've been down, but I'm up and I can feel it again
I'm back in the magic zone
~I will not fall to my knees for something NOT worked for
All my pride and my soul, sweat for this all
I will climb to the top with my own bare hands
I will not fall to my knees anymore
~plunge into darkness one more time
only to find the colors that shine
for the hole is full of something
~You've got to stay Driven
well past your time
see the end to a life long dream
make it happen today
~On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter palce and a broken dream
and we'll leave it all behind
On this day it's so real to me
everything has come to life
another chance to chase a dream
another chance to feel, a chance to feel alive
~In the silence of my heart there is a distance call
it beckons me stand apart
So I set out on my own
just to breath again
touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breath again
YEP!! that's it!! I'm off to the races!! I'll see you at the finish line and we'll talk about how this whole thing went down next time!!! Wish me LUCK, I'm gonna need it!!
Friday, August 31, 2012
More Ugly Life Lessons, thanks Universe!
I was just starting to feel good about how I looked, I mean 35lbs is a lot to lose, right!!! Don't get me wrong, there is a looooooonnnnnnnggggg way to go before I'm looking good, but still, it's a vast improvement. I've bought a few new items of clothing, and just yesterday I thought to myself "Yeah, this isn't soooo bad, if I never lose any more, I can live with the way I look. I'm feeling WAY better, that's the important thing!!" Well, if you've ever wondered if the Universe is listening, I have the answer... YES!!! I have proof!!!
I got to the gym today and the treadmill I prefer {becuz there is no mirror and the wall is right next to it, in case I fall off!!} isn't working. I tried a different plug in, which usually works, NOT today!!! I blew a breaker, and half the lights went out in the room, and the fan quit. Oopppsy! The treadmill directly next to it, is junk, even when it works, it sucks! I'm forced to make my way down to the only one left in the room... DIRECTLY in FRONT of the BIG ASS MIRROR!!! Yep!! 30+ minutes of being forced to stare at my own flabby fat legs, and my gut, bulging over my pants. I also realize as I am nearing the 2 mile mark, I'm sweating a lot. I mean I knew I sweat, but when you can see it in the mirror, holy crap!!!
I'm pretty sure that the life lesson here was...
"DO NOT get COMPLACENT !!! You do NOT look GOOD, yet, and contrary to what you believe, you can NOT live with THIS!!!"
As well as...
"You may think you are feeling way better, but you wouldn't be sweating buckets, if you were really fit!!"
Yep, more UGLY life lessons, learned the hard way!! Thanks Universe for speaking up and reminding me!!!
I got to the gym today and the treadmill I prefer {becuz there is no mirror and the wall is right next to it, in case I fall off!!} isn't working. I tried a different plug in, which usually works, NOT today!!! I blew a breaker, and half the lights went out in the room, and the fan quit. Oopppsy! The treadmill directly next to it, is junk, even when it works, it sucks! I'm forced to make my way down to the only one left in the room... DIRECTLY in FRONT of the BIG ASS MIRROR!!! Yep!! 30+ minutes of being forced to stare at my own flabby fat legs, and my gut, bulging over my pants. I also realize as I am nearing the 2 mile mark, I'm sweating a lot. I mean I knew I sweat, but when you can see it in the mirror, holy crap!!!
I'm pretty sure that the life lesson here was...
"DO NOT get COMPLACENT !!! You do NOT look GOOD, yet, and contrary to what you believe, you can NOT live with THIS!!!"
As well as...
"You may think you are feeling way better, but you wouldn't be sweating buckets, if you were really fit!!"
Yep, more UGLY life lessons, learned the hard way!! Thanks Universe for speaking up and reminding me!!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
WHY DO I RUN?
If you've been following this blog for a while now, you know the story about how this whole crazy running thing started a year ago at fair, with a deal I made with the devil {my daughter!} to run the 5K at the fair, the following year. Well, I followed through, I trained, I ran, I fulfilled my obligation, I can stop any time now right... Right!!! So what exactly is compelling me to continue with something I DO NOT enjoy in the least. I've been thinking this over for a while now, and I've finally come up, what I think is, a pretty good list of reason
*I didn't actually make the goal of RUNNING the entire 5K {partly due to weather, partly cuz I just wasn't there yet} so part of me thinks I need to keep at this, at least until I can prove to myself I can accomplish the goal of RUNNING an ENTIRE 5K. I think it's important to prove something to myself!!!
*Not that I generally care what others think of me, I don't! But it would be very nice to be able to prove, to those who do NOT believe I am capable of this, that I AM!
*Along the journey to the 5K, I realized getting physically fit might be a good idea. I realized just how far out of shape, unhealthy, and overweight I really was. I'd like to live beyond the age of 45-50.
*Running does not take a tremendous amount of skill, and since I have VERY little athletic ability {although I was recently told I have good running form, HA!}, it seems the best way for me to get exercise.
*I can do it alone. I don't have to get the team together, or wait for someone to help me out, or work with a class schedule. I can go when I want.
*To learn to control my mind. I had no idea just how ADD I might actually be until I stepped foot on a treadmill. I was bored and ready to quit within the first 30 seconds. It is hard to keep your mind under control and stay focused while running. I'd like to manage to overcome this issue. I would like to finally silence that crazy bitch, self doubt, who is constantly trying to get me to quit!!
*Improving my lung capacity. When I started this I thought my chest was going to collapse within the first 30 seconds. I could slowly see the improvement in how long I could go before starting to breath really hard, and think I may just die!! Overcoming the anxiety and fear that I might drop dead of a heart attack at any moment, would be cool.
*CHOCOLATE. Let's face it, I will never really have the will power to overcome ALL of my bad eating habits. I LOVE chocolate. If I keep running, I can keep eating!!
*Nature. It's pretty cool to be out in the early morning, when the critters are out, the sun is rising and all is quiet. The crows NEVER stop by inside the gym, which is a bummer now that it's dark in the mornings, and I'm mostly back to the treadmill.
*I've lost 35 pounds, so who knows how much I could potentially lose, if I keep at this.
*It helps me de-stress, not that I really get stressed very often.
*It gives me time to think, to ponder the workings of the universe, and all the other crazy shit that goes on inside my head!!!
*My body seems to feel better, well most of the time.
* I have more energy on the days I run
*I've made myself a bit proud of my ability to push through the injury, and pain, and not make excuses to quit. So why quit now.
*The more fit I get, the more brave I get. Not sure that's a good thing for me, but it's true. I am more inclined to try things I wouldn't have before. Cuz I might have a stroke, or make a complete fool of myself-let's be honest, there's some things you just DON'T want to see a really fat, out of shape person do!! No one wants to be the EMT who has to try and shove my ass in an ambulance or the rescue worker who has to chain saw me out of some crazy place!!! No one wants to hear, I'm sorry you can't participate, you are over the weight limit. {As if it's not bad enough I'm too short to ride half the carnival rides!!} There are still a million things I won't do, just becuz of my physical limitations. I'd like to live life without limitation!!!
*I don't feel like my journey is over. I want to finish this. To see it through. I think I will know when my journey with running is over, until then, I continue.
*New clothes!! Let's be honest, there are WAY more options for cute clothes for non-chubby girls. It's sad and unfortunate but true!!!
*Tattoo's!!! No One wants to tattoo a fat chick. And this fat chick doesn't want to show off her tat's until she's not fat!! Got a cute little one all picked out, getting it very soon. Will post pics!!
*How would I entertain all of my readers, IF I stop running???
*Here comes the really hokey, deep thinker reason... And please don't misunderstand me, I would NOT EVER change a single thing about how I've chosen to live my life up to this point. I feel like up until I started this thing, I mostly lived my life for my kids and husband. They came first, before all other things, including my fitness. They are mostly grown {well with the exception of my husband!!heehee!} and don't need me much. It's time for me to take some time and do some things for myself. In the beginning, I was doing this for Maddy, but now this is all about me. I need to do this for me.
*I need to know how it feels to be alive. I want to feel alive
Okay, so I also went and grabbed a few quotes from Pinterest, cuz that's a GREAT place to find inspiration and idea's.
Reasons to be fit:
-this will become my lifestyle
-it's about time to become the best me I can be
-to show that I haven't given up on me
-to love my body as much as I love my soul {ooh that's a good one}
-I want to be strong, healthy, and happy
-to know that if it came down to it, I could knock you out!
And the one my daughter sent me...
Because the zombies won't wait for you to catch your breath. This one is especially important!!!
Alright who has missed my crazy posts that contain song lyrics??? Well Then YOU will be excited to see I am adding some to this post!!! This is a song that motivates me, kind of encompasses all the reasons I keep running, by one of my very favorite bands, Alter Bridge. I find a lot of their songs to be motivational, this song is entitled "Breathe Again"
*Tried to post the youtube link thingy, not sure it worked!
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I have played the part
I have all but lost my soul
And I have sacrificed
For what it's worth, I just don't know
In the silence of my heart
There is a distant call
Yeah
It beckons me to stand apart
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breathe again
Through the suffering
Through the misery and pain
Never anything
But the will to see the day
When the promise might be born
Light the spark within
Yeah
'Cause I can't take it anymore
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breathe again
Well I am free to roam
And set out on my own
To rise above the hands that try to hold me down
Before the end, I know I'll breathe again
To find my way
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
I'm leaving today
I'm leaving today
I'm leaving today
How about some pics... Haven't done those in a while
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| THIS is the next tattoo I'm getting OBVIOUSLY it will only say 3.1 cuz I'll never run 26.2 miles!!! |
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| Went shopping for new jeans!! |
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| This is what 5am looks like when you get up and run!! |
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| These are some of the critters you get to see at 5am Yes, Turkeys are ugly, but still |
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| This is the B17 Bomber I climbed into would NEVER have tried that a year ago!! |
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| I want to eat more than just salad. So I continue to run! |
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| THAT's more like it!!!! |
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| Why Do I Run??? |
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
FIND YOUR INSPIRATION
So, yesterday I had a ton of people reading my blog, and had several Facebook comments, as well as actual comments left here on the blog site. I want to take a quick second and say Thank You for stopping by to read, or continuing to read. I love seeing how many of you stop by, and I love comments/feedback, so feel free to jump on and say something!!!
The most interesting thing that has now been said to me several times, and EVERY SINGLE TIME, it catches me off guard, is that I inspire some of you. I consider that to be the ULTIMATE compliment, and I TRULY appreciate the compliment. The thing is I'm always shocked and taken aback by it, because I'm not sure what I've done that could possibly Inspire anyone else. Don't get me wrong, if I can inspire just one person, that is AWESOME!!!! I feel like I'm just some goofy, fat, old, out of shape, girl, who can't write well, but decided I'd share my crazy, rambling, simple minded, adventures with the cyber~world. Who knew you'd find ANY of it interesting, let alone inspiring. The truth is, if I knew each of you personally, I'm certain I could/would find something about your life inspiring. I believe everyone has something inspirational to offer. I just didn't realize it could be me, guess I never really thought of myself that way. Maybe, we never really stop to think about how other people could inspire us, how we could inspire others, or how we can inspire ourselves! Inspiration is all around us!!! Just gotta look for it, and maybe see things from a little different angle, I think.
So tell me please {really, write it in the comment section!}...
What does Inspire You???
How do you Inspire others???
How do you Inspire yourself??
Where do you look for Inspiration???
Where do you find Inspiration???
And again Thank you for the compliment, thank you for reading, and thank you for letting me, Inspire you!!!
Go out and FIND YOUR INSPIRATION!! I bet it's right there, "where ever some body is trying to find it" the same place as your GREATNESS!!!
The most interesting thing that has now been said to me several times, and EVERY SINGLE TIME, it catches me off guard, is that I inspire some of you. I consider that to be the ULTIMATE compliment, and I TRULY appreciate the compliment. The thing is I'm always shocked and taken aback by it, because I'm not sure what I've done that could possibly Inspire anyone else. Don't get me wrong, if I can inspire just one person, that is AWESOME!!!! I feel like I'm just some goofy, fat, old, out of shape, girl, who can't write well, but decided I'd share my crazy, rambling, simple minded, adventures with the cyber~world. Who knew you'd find ANY of it interesting, let alone inspiring. The truth is, if I knew each of you personally, I'm certain I could/would find something about your life inspiring. I believe everyone has something inspirational to offer. I just didn't realize it could be me, guess I never really thought of myself that way. Maybe, we never really stop to think about how other people could inspire us, how we could inspire others, or how we can inspire ourselves! Inspiration is all around us!!! Just gotta look for it, and maybe see things from a little different angle, I think.
So tell me please {really, write it in the comment section!}...
What does Inspire You???
How do you Inspire others???
How do you Inspire yourself??
Where do you look for Inspiration???
Where do you find Inspiration???
And again Thank you for the compliment, thank you for reading, and thank you for letting me, Inspire you!!!
Go out and FIND YOUR INSPIRATION!! I bet it's right there, "where ever some body is trying to find it" the same place as your GREATNESS!!!
Monday, August 20, 2012
FIND YOUR GREATNESS
I've been struggling with finding/making time for blogging lately. Honestly, I've been having a hard time finding/making time for almost everything lately. It's crazy, cuz I'm not even sue what I've been so busy doing! I am so far behind on everything!!! The good news is, I've still been running. What else have I been doing?? Taking pics, working on finishing the bedroom remodel, helping Maddy move into her new apt., helping get ready for fair, being at the fair, recovering from the fair, sleeping~I've been very VERY tired for the last month, and of course I've been watching the Olympics. Which leads me to the interesting {well that's questionable} part of the blog post. The last month has been a bigger struggle to continue on the path to the 5K than almost any other time during this journey. It's been almost a year now, and there have been plenty of times along the way I wanted to just quit, and over the holiday stretch I did quit for a bit, but never was the mental struggle involved been as crazy, as this past month. When I quit for the holidays, I just quit. NO guilt, no concern for what the impact of all my bad choices would be later. I just put everything on hold. Then Ryan got me the gym membership and back to work I went!! Other times I've, struggled for a few days or what ever, but this was a serious stretch of time for me. I'm not sure what prompted it, I just had a lot of struggling going on. First I had the fall, the huge swollen ankle, then the broken {or severely bruised} pinky toe, both of which made it difficult to run. Then my right knee started to hurt, which I think had something to do with the favoring the sore left ankle/toe! Then I got tired, not just a bit tired, but super tired. My whole body was tired. I had no energy. My legs felt like lead. Just running for five minutes was a struggle, and I was getting muscle cramps. I was craving chocolate like crazy. And I was no longer losing ANY weight. I've said this before, and I want to say it again. The weight loss thing is just a bonus side effect for me, it's not necessarily why I'm doing this, BUT it's nice when it happens!!! It sucks when you don't want to run, are making NO progress on the treadmill, AND you stop losing weight too!!! I knew several weeks ago that I was NOT going to be able to run my entire 5K at the fair. This was also bringing me down a bit, I won't lie, I was a tad disappointed in myself. Could things have been different if I had worked harder, not taken off the time during the holiday season? Would things have been different if I hadn't twisted my ankle? Would I have made more progress if I had eaten less junk??? All reasonable questions to be asking myself. But it doesn't really matter, cuz it's too late to change the outcome.
At this point, Ryan suggested that I take a few {3-4} days off, drink a ton of water, rest, and then get back at it. Maybe my body just needed a bit of a rest. So for several days I drank a ton of water, upped my protein and iron intake, watched a lot of olympics, and slept a lot!! It seemed to work, I did feel better. Mentally and Physically.
I loved watching the Olympics, the stories of struggle, disappointment, heartbreak, sacrifice, determination, drive, hard work, achievement, and of course the cool commercials!! If you can't watch the olympics and find some inspiration, you are seriously not looking for it!!!
My favorite commercial would have to be the Nike FIND YOUR GREATNESS commercial.
"Somehow we've come to believe that Greatness was reserved for the chosen few or the superstars. The truth is, Greatness is for all of us. This is not about lowering expectations, its about raising them for every last one of us. Because Greatness is not in one special place and it is not in one special person. Greatness is where ever somebody is trying to find it!"
Or the CitiBank commercial about DEDICATION
"-take a day off, I don't even take a morning off
-I haven't ordered desert in 2 years
-You know that best selling book everyone loves, I haven't read it
-I haven't watched TV since last Summer
Hey, I been busy!!!"
These commercials really get me thinking, they have a truly powerful message, for everyone, not just the superior athletes of the olympics. Nor do they have to be about athletics, necessarily. What is YOUR greatness? FIND your greatness!
So, the question is... During this journey over the last year, have I found my Greatness??? I think so. The truth is that my Greatness is not in being a 5K runner, my Greatness is in the decision to get healthy. My Greatness is in not quitting when my ankle, toe, knee hurt. My Greatness is in making better choices every day. My ultimate Greatness was 2 days after the 5K, I made the decision to keep going, to make a new goal and work toward it. My Greatness is in recognizing that without a new goal to work toward I will quit. I believe I've found my Greatness!!
So my new goal is to RUN the entire Lane Walker 5K on October 13. This gives me about 2 months to be ready. I'm pretty sure I can make it, Saturday I ran an entire 2.75miles without stopping to walk. YEAH, I was pretty dang geeked about that!!! I'm still not fast, that is a goal for later down the road. My current list of fitness goals goes something like this
1) RUN the Lane Walker 5K in October
2) Continue with the healthy/clean eating
3) add some weight lifting to my routine
4) add some biking to my routine
5) This time next year, if I'm looking much more healthy and fit~ there WILL be a new Family pic taken for the living room wall!!!
Those seem like pretty reasonable goals, for now, right!?!? You know me, my goals are pretty flexible, I can add things, change things, what ever I need to do...
OH! And if you are wondering how that stupid Fair 5K went...
It was horrible!!! It was raining, cold, and windy. The fair grounds were a sloppy, muddy, mess!! Maddy told me I could ditch out, that SHE would NOT run in that crap. So, I had an out, but I did NOT take it, I had prepaid for the event. BUT, I sure didn't turn in my best time, in fact, I never even went to see what my time was. I walked at least half the course, cuz it was mud, and NO way was a ruining a great pair of shoes over a 5K. And for the obvious safety concerns, I felt it was best, for me, to walk more often than not. The last thing I need is to fall during fair week. There was still a horse to get home. So, I consider the fact that I attempted it, in horrible conditions to be my Finding My Greatness accomplishment!!! After it was over I had a celebratory 24hr junk food binge. That was pretty awesome, I won't even lie!! I ate ice cream, hot dogs, chocolate, chips, and more ice cream!!! But, like I said, Monday morning it was back to the gym!!!
And so the journey continues...
FIND YOUR GREATNESS.
remember,
it's where ever somebody is trying to find it!!
I'll be right there with ya, trying to find mine!!
At this point, Ryan suggested that I take a few {3-4} days off, drink a ton of water, rest, and then get back at it. Maybe my body just needed a bit of a rest. So for several days I drank a ton of water, upped my protein and iron intake, watched a lot of olympics, and slept a lot!! It seemed to work, I did feel better. Mentally and Physically.
I loved watching the Olympics, the stories of struggle, disappointment, heartbreak, sacrifice, determination, drive, hard work, achievement, and of course the cool commercials!! If you can't watch the olympics and find some inspiration, you are seriously not looking for it!!!
My favorite commercial would have to be the Nike FIND YOUR GREATNESS commercial.
"Somehow we've come to believe that Greatness was reserved for the chosen few or the superstars. The truth is, Greatness is for all of us. This is not about lowering expectations, its about raising them for every last one of us. Because Greatness is not in one special place and it is not in one special person. Greatness is where ever somebody is trying to find it!"
Or the CitiBank commercial about DEDICATION
"-take a day off, I don't even take a morning off
-I haven't ordered desert in 2 years
-You know that best selling book everyone loves, I haven't read it
-I haven't watched TV since last Summer
Hey, I been busy!!!"
These commercials really get me thinking, they have a truly powerful message, for everyone, not just the superior athletes of the olympics. Nor do they have to be about athletics, necessarily. What is YOUR greatness? FIND your greatness!
So, the question is... During this journey over the last year, have I found my Greatness??? I think so. The truth is that my Greatness is not in being a 5K runner, my Greatness is in the decision to get healthy. My Greatness is in not quitting when my ankle, toe, knee hurt. My Greatness is in making better choices every day. My ultimate Greatness was 2 days after the 5K, I made the decision to keep going, to make a new goal and work toward it. My Greatness is in recognizing that without a new goal to work toward I will quit. I believe I've found my Greatness!!
So my new goal is to RUN the entire Lane Walker 5K on October 13. This gives me about 2 months to be ready. I'm pretty sure I can make it, Saturday I ran an entire 2.75miles without stopping to walk. YEAH, I was pretty dang geeked about that!!! I'm still not fast, that is a goal for later down the road. My current list of fitness goals goes something like this
1) RUN the Lane Walker 5K in October
2) Continue with the healthy/clean eating
3) add some weight lifting to my routine
4) add some biking to my routine
5) This time next year, if I'm looking much more healthy and fit~ there WILL be a new Family pic taken for the living room wall!!!
Those seem like pretty reasonable goals, for now, right!?!? You know me, my goals are pretty flexible, I can add things, change things, what ever I need to do...
OH! And if you are wondering how that stupid Fair 5K went...
It was horrible!!! It was raining, cold, and windy. The fair grounds were a sloppy, muddy, mess!! Maddy told me I could ditch out, that SHE would NOT run in that crap. So, I had an out, but I did NOT take it, I had prepaid for the event. BUT, I sure didn't turn in my best time, in fact, I never even went to see what my time was. I walked at least half the course, cuz it was mud, and NO way was a ruining a great pair of shoes over a 5K. And for the obvious safety concerns, I felt it was best, for me, to walk more often than not. The last thing I need is to fall during fair week. There was still a horse to get home. So, I consider the fact that I attempted it, in horrible conditions to be my Finding My Greatness accomplishment!!! After it was over I had a celebratory 24hr junk food binge. That was pretty awesome, I won't even lie!! I ate ice cream, hot dogs, chocolate, chips, and more ice cream!!! But, like I said, Monday morning it was back to the gym!!!
And so the journey continues...
FIND YOUR GREATNESS.
remember,
it's where ever somebody is trying to find it!!
I'll be right there with ya, trying to find mine!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
What Goes Up Must Come Down...
You know that old saying, right?
Well, todays theme is a
little more like, what goes down, must get up!!
About 2 minutes into my walk today, the dog was tugging at
the leash a bit and I looked over at her, to tell her to stop pulling me, which
she totally would have understood, cuz she's that smart, but I didn't get the
words outta my mouth cuz I stepped in a hole, I twisted my ankle and fell down,
ALL the WAY down. I fall a lot, I'm used
to such things, but I HATE when I'm out in public and I fall. You want to cry, but you're not sure if it's
cuz it hurts or becuz you've just embarrassed yourself, again. The severity of this tumble is somewhat less,
than a lot of my previous ones. ~Like the time I fell down the stairs and broke
my arm, or just a couple of years ago when we were at Redbud, an Outdoor
National Motocross race {Maddy, if you are reading this now, we will take a
short pause for you to laugh yourself into tears (yet again) and then compose
yourself enough to continue reading!} that fall was a pretty good one, my ankle
got huge and black, blue and purple!! But that was my only injury. I picked myself up {yeah, no help from my
family members, in fact Ryan stood there and shook his head as if to say
"there she goes again!"} I soldiered
on, watching the entire race. Sure, I couldn't get shoes on for 2 days after,
my foot got so big! Back to today, I had a few more injuries, scuffed my elbow,
and my knee pretty good, and twisted my ankle.
I even ended up with a stone in my mouth, for real!!!! Go ahead, laugh,
it is kinda funny. After the fall, I get
up and assess the damages and decide if I can limp back home or if the dog will
be required to drag me. Realizing the
dog is not up for that challenge, I limp home. Along the way, I fight the urge to cry like a
girl, and I realize it's not becuz it hurts that bad, although it is a bit
painful. Not only do I move slow, but I
think slow, so I take the next few minutes to reflect on exactly why am I so
upset over a tiny {yet public} fall.
Turns out, I'm concerned that if this hurts, and I can't run, it might
set me back at least 2 weeks, and then I will never make the 5K deadline!!! In
the past I may have been glad that the universe had just offered me a way out
of an obligation, I was just provided with the PERFECT excuse, an injury, but
today I was upset by it. This is a most
strange turn of events. Who am I
becoming?!?!? So, I bandage myself up {another event I'm all too familiar with}
and decide to go back out and try to walk and see how that goes, if it's good,
I'll break into the running thing!! I walked about 5 minutes and decided, it
was pretty good, so I ran. I went the
entire 1.75miles, walking/running.
While I was running I got to thinking maybe I should've just
stayed in bed today. And then a lot of other strange things start to flow
through my crazy brain, the way things tend to go with my brain!!! I'm
one of those people, who tries to look at every situation and find the good,
the life lessons, to decide if this is meant to be a challenge or if somehow
there was a sign intended, if the universe was trying to speak to me. And
something occurred to me, lately I've been hearing a lot of people talk
about their fitness experiences, and I'm finding myself comparing {I know,
NEVER a good idea} It just seems like so many people are making so much more
progress than me, going faster, further. And for a brief moment it had been
kinda getting me down {I know, stupid}!! So here's what I've concluded from this morning's incident:
~Walk your own walk/Run your own run. You always have, why
change that now, it'll only cause you to stumble and fall!
~When you start concerning yourself with what others are
doing, you might not be paying attention to what you are doing, and you always
want to be paying attention to what you are doing, and to your
surroundings. Consider paying attention
to what your dog is doing too, cuz obviously SHE was paying closer attention to
your surroundings than you were, she did try to pull you away from the hole! Trust
your dog!
~Always look in the direction where YOUR goals {and/or feet}
are headed and you will be less likely to fall.
~What goes down, MUST get up!! Always keep getting up, no
matter how often you fall down, that's what makes you stronger.
~Okay, and there may have been a lesson on gratefulness and
appreciation, for how far I've come, without having a heart attack, oh and
possibly a snippet about believing in oneself…
~And if you never win a trophy, you'll always have that big ass scar on your knee to remember the 5K you trained your ass off for!!!
Sometimes, the Universe just has to throw you, face down, in the dirt to make you see things clearly. Maybe that just happens to us stubborn people who refuse to see things otherwise.
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| My knee, that is a big ass Band Aid |
Let me also say that, as much as I LOVE my inspirational music, this gave a whole new meaning to the
lyrics from Road of Determination when Tallon says "I will not fall to my
knees, for something NOT worked for!"
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| Or maybe it was just a freak accident, I fell, nothing more... Wither way, I choose to continue along MY Road of Determination!!! |
Back to the Room Remodel
Well, today I started out the morning with a bit of an outside walk/run. I went the same route as yesterday, but today my APP said it was only 1.75miles, strange. Regardless, I ran the same amount. My shins are still hurting, hope I get used to running on the pavement soon.
The weather has cooled down a bit, so I went back to work on the painting/room redo. I finally finished the painting, but still have a huge list of things to do. Wanna see pics of the progress???
Oh you know I'm gonna post them anyway...
Still losts of work to do, but that's a sneak peak , for now. More pics later!!!
The weather has cooled down a bit, so I went back to work on the painting/room redo. I finally finished the painting, but still have a huge list of things to do. Wanna see pics of the progress???
Oh you know I'm gonna post them anyway...
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| These doors took forever!!! |
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| The stair railing took forever!! |
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| All the black trim took forever!! |
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| The library area still needs cleared out/cleaned up~obviously!! |
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| All the furniture is crammed together in the center of the room. I had to cut the carpet out around the furniture, will get rid of the center later. I only suffered a couple minor injuries while cutting and ripping out carpet. A couple scratches on my arm and a small but slightly deep cut on one of my toes, from a staples in the carpet. YEs, I know, a person should really wear shoes while tearing out carpet, but I had leather gloves on, how much safety equipment can one girl be expected be to use?? Next thing you'll be telling me I should wear safety glasses too... It's all fun and games until someone loses and eye!! |
Monday, July 9, 2012
Today I Loath Running a Little Bit Less, and the Murder of Crows
I'm gonna start todays ramble out by stating some cold hard facts. My times for both my practice 5K's have kinda sucked, and I still have a very long way to go and a short time to get there. I know I have a LOT of hard work ahead of me. BUT for a few moments, I am gonna sit back and be proud of myself for setting a goal and working towards it. For finishing both my 5K's, and for running about half the second one. I've been eating a lot healthier. I still eat my chocolate from time to time {yesterday} but I haven't had a pop or fast food in forever! Let's be honest, I would NEVER have believed that I WOULD even attempt such things. And I am proud of how far I've come, but enough of that ~now it's back to work!!
I feel like, even if my 5K's have not been a huge successes as far as my stats are concerned, they have been very instrumental in teaching me what I need to work on:
~It's very hard for me to gage my speed, when I'm not on the tread mill, with the numbers right in front of me. It's funny, cuz on that treadmill I feel like I'm running super fast, like I'm hauling ass!! You get outside and find out that is not true, AT ALL!! You feel like you are going turtle speed, it takes forever to get anywhere.
~I don't like standing around with a bunch of athletes. I feel like people might be judging me, which is weird cuz I've never really given half a crap about what anybody thinks of me. But, you get there, in their world, and you feel like everyone is staring at the fat girl in the tight running shirt, wondering what the Hell she thinks she's gonna do!! And really what do I care what they think!! Why would it matter what they are thinking, this is about me, NOT them, so I need to get over my self-consciousness, and focus on what I'm there for.
~It's hard for me to focus my mind on the things I should be focusing on, when I'm outside. I'm not sure what this was all about but I couldn't focus on the music, I couldn't focus on my feet, and how I was running. My mind was just everywhere. And some of the time it was telling me how stupid this was, and that I couldn't go any farther.
~I learned that your body hurts in different places when you run outside. My lower back started to hurt. And my shins hurt, a lot, the next day.
~I think it might be useful to know the course in advance and if I am able, walk it, the day before.
Soooo. In an effort to try and make lemonade out of lemons. I decided it was time to take the knowledge I had gained from running these 2- 5K's, and put it to good use. I will start running outside several times per week, and try to get my issues in check!!!
Today, I went for a run outside. Not sure the whole neighborhood is thrilled about watching a fat chick and her chubby dog waddle past at 6AM but there we were. I'm sure that we've all witnessed stranger things in this 'hood!! All in all it was a pretty good walk/run, even if it was short. Gotta work out some details about where to travel that equals 3.1 miles, but for today I did 1.89miles in about 30 minutes. The time seemed to go pretty fast, which makes it official, my attention span is 30 minutes and NO longer. That means I've gotta find a way to get my race pace up to 6pmh. Along the way we saw a cute grey kitty, a bunch of deer, including a couple little bucks. And the CROWS, the wonderful crows!!! I'm not sure how many crows it takes to make it a murder of crows, {but since " A Murder of Crows" is a cool thing to say, I'm gonna say that 8 is enough to equal a murder!!} and there they were, a murder of crows {8} of them waiting in the middle of the road, just as a rounded a corner and was about to start my jog again. There they were, waiting for me!!! They all flew up to the power line and Caw'ed to me, urging me on. Telling me I could do it, that they were proud of me, that I was making great changes in my life. Well, at least that's what I believe they were doing there. Could be they smelled a heart attack waiting to happen, and they were there to pick my carcass clean after I dropped over dead. But I prefer to believe crows are awesome birds, that are there for really cool reasons. And can I just say it's been forever since I've seen the crows while walking. I saw them a lot while walking down the country roads, and when I first started at the gym, I saw one everyday for the first week, perched in the same tree, cawing to me. So today was a wonderful surprise, seeing them all on my walk/run, I've missed the crows!!! And today, for the first time, I loathed running just a little bit less!!!
I'm off to run outside again tomorrow AM...
OH and BTW, it seems I was off on the countdown. The REAL DEAL 5K is much sooner than I thought. It's now less than 5 weeks away!!! HOLY CRAP!!!
I feel like, even if my 5K's have not been a huge successes as far as my stats are concerned, they have been very instrumental in teaching me what I need to work on:
~It's very hard for me to gage my speed, when I'm not on the tread mill, with the numbers right in front of me. It's funny, cuz on that treadmill I feel like I'm running super fast, like I'm hauling ass!! You get outside and find out that is not true, AT ALL!! You feel like you are going turtle speed, it takes forever to get anywhere.
~I don't like standing around with a bunch of athletes. I feel like people might be judging me, which is weird cuz I've never really given half a crap about what anybody thinks of me. But, you get there, in their world, and you feel like everyone is staring at the fat girl in the tight running shirt, wondering what the Hell she thinks she's gonna do!! And really what do I care what they think!! Why would it matter what they are thinking, this is about me, NOT them, so I need to get over my self-consciousness, and focus on what I'm there for.
~It's hard for me to focus my mind on the things I should be focusing on, when I'm outside. I'm not sure what this was all about but I couldn't focus on the music, I couldn't focus on my feet, and how I was running. My mind was just everywhere. And some of the time it was telling me how stupid this was, and that I couldn't go any farther.
~I learned that your body hurts in different places when you run outside. My lower back started to hurt. And my shins hurt, a lot, the next day.
~I think it might be useful to know the course in advance and if I am able, walk it, the day before.
Soooo. In an effort to try and make lemonade out of lemons. I decided it was time to take the knowledge I had gained from running these 2- 5K's, and put it to good use. I will start running outside several times per week, and try to get my issues in check!!!
Today, I went for a run outside. Not sure the whole neighborhood is thrilled about watching a fat chick and her chubby dog waddle past at 6AM but there we were. I'm sure that we've all witnessed stranger things in this 'hood!! All in all it was a pretty good walk/run, even if it was short. Gotta work out some details about where to travel that equals 3.1 miles, but for today I did 1.89miles in about 30 minutes. The time seemed to go pretty fast, which makes it official, my attention span is 30 minutes and NO longer. That means I've gotta find a way to get my race pace up to 6pmh. Along the way we saw a cute grey kitty, a bunch of deer, including a couple little bucks. And the CROWS, the wonderful crows!!! I'm not sure how many crows it takes to make it a murder of crows, {but since " A Murder of Crows" is a cool thing to say, I'm gonna say that 8 is enough to equal a murder!!} and there they were, a murder of crows {8} of them waiting in the middle of the road, just as a rounded a corner and was about to start my jog again. There they were, waiting for me!!! They all flew up to the power line and Caw'ed to me, urging me on. Telling me I could do it, that they were proud of me, that I was making great changes in my life. Well, at least that's what I believe they were doing there. Could be they smelled a heart attack waiting to happen, and they were there to pick my carcass clean after I dropped over dead. But I prefer to believe crows are awesome birds, that are there for really cool reasons. And can I just say it's been forever since I've seen the crows while walking. I saw them a lot while walking down the country roads, and when I first started at the gym, I saw one everyday for the first week, perched in the same tree, cawing to me. So today was a wonderful surprise, seeing them all on my walk/run, I've missed the crows!!! And today, for the first time, I loathed running just a little bit less!!!
I'm off to run outside again tomorrow AM...
OH and BTW, it seems I was off on the countdown. The REAL DEAL 5K is much sooner than I thought. It's now less than 5 weeks away!!! HOLY CRAP!!!
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Choices, Support, and Finishing
I am a mosey-er. I am just naturally slow moving, alway have been. I can't tell you how many times my mother said these words to me "You will be late to your own funeral!!" I don't know if it's just the way some people are or if it's a combination of several things. Like the fact that I'm also short {barely measuring in at 5'1 3/4"} I am fat {finally down to 185lbs} and I am extremely clumsy {I fall a lot-have broken almost every toe, and my arm just from falling, mostly on stairs, or flat ground}. Regardless, I am a slow mover, it's a fact, and one that makes todays feat even more monumental.
I am also tempted to sit here and make a nice little list of all the things I've been through in my lifetime that contribute to the condition I currently find myself in {fat, and miserably out of shape} but I'm not sure you'd want to listen to me ramble on, whining, about that and I'm also not sure if they are just plain facts, excuses or maybe a combination of both. Things are what they are, we make the choices we make, and we reap the consequences of our choices. There is always a choice, and we may not always know a better way to react to our situation, but they are, in fact, our choices. And my reactions to the events in my life, weather I knew better at the time or not, were still in fact my choice and my reactions. What's my point??? While some of the things in my life were not of my creating and not my choice, the reaction to eat my way through sadness, grief, anger, stress, happiness, THAT was my choice. If I knew then, what I know now, would I have done things differently? Maybe, maybe not. I believe that every decision, good or bad, makes you the person you are today, and to be honest, I'm pretty happy with the person I am today. I am not happy about the body, I as a person, happen to be walking {or waddling} around in but that's the consequence of the choices I made.
I've chosen to do something about that.
Maybe it started out as a deal I made with my daughter. Maybe I've been inspired by my families physical efforts and achievements, along with the physical obstacles they've overcome. But somewhere along the journey, I've realized that part of what drives me is not just the deals, and the inspiration, but my own health. See, I lost my mother when I was only 29years old and to be honest, I know the pain of not having a mom around. It never really occurred to me that my kids could lose their mom, becuz she failed to take care of herself. Would my kids be okay without me, heck yes! They are strong people, but should they have to, before it's my time, and becuz I chose not to take care of myself?? NO!
I have no excuses, or shortage of reasons to be inspired to finish this thing!
Now, if you've been following this blog, you are already aware of the lonnnng and tedious journey I've been on for the last 10 months. You've listened to me bitch, complain, whine, brag, and ramble on endlessly about a lot of crazy shit in between. {And I truly appreciate each and everyone of you for putting up with me!!!} You also know that the Big 5K is coming up here in about 6weeks. The day I RUN and entire 5K, or drop dead trying.
Today was my second attempt at a {practice} 5K. The first one, I walked the entire thing and finished in 48-something. Today, I ran parts of it. I ran, then walked, then ran, then walked. It was slow and ugly, but I MADE it!!! And in my personal best of 46.05. I know I have a long way to go, and a short time to get there, but I will keep on going!!!
The most important part of todays 5K is not my PB time, but the people who are a part of my support system. At 10pm last night, I got a text from my daughter, who's on vacation, telling me good luck. This morning, I received several Facebook posts giving me encouragement. But the most impressive display of support was my husband and son. My husband just had knee surgery June 14th, today he signed up and ran with me. He stayed with me the whole time. He wouldn't let me give up and walk, he kept encouraging me, saying things like "just to the next corner, then you can walk!" When we got close to the 2.5 mile mark, he informed me "I will not let you finish this in a slower time than your last one, lets GO!" Now, my son Tallon, ran the entire race and then turned around and ran back to find us, and finished the race with me too!! Who could ask for more support than that???? They made me finish it running, not walking.
So thank you to everyone who encourages me to keep on keeping on, and thank you to my family for ALWAYS supporting this crazy thing I'm doing!!!
Oh and by the way, when the race description says, "some small hills" What I realized today was, that they really meant "Today you will climb Mt. Everest, and it will be 80 degrees when you do it!!"
I'm not thrilled with my time or performance, but today I did okay. I am slow, short, fat and out of shape. I made the choices in my life that led me to where I am today. I choose to do something about it. I have no shortage of inspiration and support. Thank you everyone who has been there for me. I will finish this thing.
The Countdown sits at 6 weeks!!!
I am also tempted to sit here and make a nice little list of all the things I've been through in my lifetime that contribute to the condition I currently find myself in {fat, and miserably out of shape} but I'm not sure you'd want to listen to me ramble on, whining, about that and I'm also not sure if they are just plain facts, excuses or maybe a combination of both. Things are what they are, we make the choices we make, and we reap the consequences of our choices. There is always a choice, and we may not always know a better way to react to our situation, but they are, in fact, our choices. And my reactions to the events in my life, weather I knew better at the time or not, were still in fact my choice and my reactions. What's my point??? While some of the things in my life were not of my creating and not my choice, the reaction to eat my way through sadness, grief, anger, stress, happiness, THAT was my choice. If I knew then, what I know now, would I have done things differently? Maybe, maybe not. I believe that every decision, good or bad, makes you the person you are today, and to be honest, I'm pretty happy with the person I am today. I am not happy about the body, I as a person, happen to be walking {or waddling} around in but that's the consequence of the choices I made.
I've chosen to do something about that.
Maybe it started out as a deal I made with my daughter. Maybe I've been inspired by my families physical efforts and achievements, along with the physical obstacles they've overcome. But somewhere along the journey, I've realized that part of what drives me is not just the deals, and the inspiration, but my own health. See, I lost my mother when I was only 29years old and to be honest, I know the pain of not having a mom around. It never really occurred to me that my kids could lose their mom, becuz she failed to take care of herself. Would my kids be okay without me, heck yes! They are strong people, but should they have to, before it's my time, and becuz I chose not to take care of myself?? NO!
I have no excuses, or shortage of reasons to be inspired to finish this thing!
Now, if you've been following this blog, you are already aware of the lonnnng and tedious journey I've been on for the last 10 months. You've listened to me bitch, complain, whine, brag, and ramble on endlessly about a lot of crazy shit in between. {And I truly appreciate each and everyone of you for putting up with me!!!} You also know that the Big 5K is coming up here in about 6weeks. The day I RUN and entire 5K, or drop dead trying.
Today was my second attempt at a {practice} 5K. The first one, I walked the entire thing and finished in 48-something. Today, I ran parts of it. I ran, then walked, then ran, then walked. It was slow and ugly, but I MADE it!!! And in my personal best of 46.05. I know I have a long way to go, and a short time to get there, but I will keep on going!!!
The most important part of todays 5K is not my PB time, but the people who are a part of my support system. At 10pm last night, I got a text from my daughter, who's on vacation, telling me good luck. This morning, I received several Facebook posts giving me encouragement. But the most impressive display of support was my husband and son. My husband just had knee surgery June 14th, today he signed up and ran with me. He stayed with me the whole time. He wouldn't let me give up and walk, he kept encouraging me, saying things like "just to the next corner, then you can walk!" When we got close to the 2.5 mile mark, he informed me "I will not let you finish this in a slower time than your last one, lets GO!" Now, my son Tallon, ran the entire race and then turned around and ran back to find us, and finished the race with me too!! Who could ask for more support than that???? They made me finish it running, not walking.
So thank you to everyone who encourages me to keep on keeping on, and thank you to my family for ALWAYS supporting this crazy thing I'm doing!!!
Oh and by the way, when the race description says, "some small hills" What I realized today was, that they really meant "Today you will climb Mt. Everest, and it will be 80 degrees when you do it!!"
I'm not thrilled with my time or performance, but today I did okay. I am slow, short, fat and out of shape. I made the choices in my life that led me to where I am today. I choose to do something about it. I have no shortage of inspiration and support. Thank you everyone who has been there for me. I will finish this thing.
The Countdown sits at 6 weeks!!!
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| theBoys reading the course map |
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| Tallon |
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| Ryan |
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| Me... |
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| Tallon stretches. |
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| Ryan is either mentally preparing for race, or napping!! Can you believe those skinny legs actually hold him up!! |
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| Race T-shirts |
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| race course map. |
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Well it's been a while since there were some pictures posted on here, so today is a giant picture posting!!! Ready????
Well, there it is... that's all I got for now. I've taken a ton of pics with my phone and if you've been following me on Instagram, @deniseweatherby ~you've already seen those, or you can follow them on the Instagram feed at the bottom of the blog too!!!
Today I've been to the gym. Started Week4Day1. Did it.
Speed =walk 3.5 run 4.5mph
5minute warm up walk
run 3 min
walk 90seconds
run 5 minutes
walk 3 min
run 3 min
walk 90 sec ~I walked for 3 min again!!!
run 5 min
5 minute cool down walk
Wasn't impressive but it's in the bag!!
Kinda tired today. Went to gym last week on Mon-Wed-Fri, Sat, and Sun. Sunday I went for an entire 3.1 mile walk/run, painted, and got that "girl thing" {TMI} going on, so maybe that's why I'm so tired, I don't know!!! COUNTDOWN= just under 7weeks now!!!
Now I'm off to work on painting the bedroom. We are down to the doors and trim, BLACK!!! The room is looking HUGE and BRIGHT and has a much more calm feel about it, even with the red. I still HATE the carpet, not sure there are enough area rugs to hide that ugly ass carpet!!!! Oh well, we must all compromise.
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| We finally got started painting her bedroom!!! |
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| She takes a little nap after cutting in all the white walls and trim |
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| Then we were on to the red walls, she gets to roll this time... And the paint sure does look pink, good thing it dried MUCH darker!! |
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| She rolls... Like that doggy butt Christmas tee she is sporting?!?!?!? |
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| time for the black trim... |
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| The red sure looks bad when it's wet!!! |
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| The red walls are done and so is she... |
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| Guess I'm doing the rest by myself. |
Today I've been to the gym. Started Week4Day1. Did it.
Speed =walk 3.5 run 4.5mph
5minute warm up walk
run 3 min
walk 90seconds
run 5 minutes
walk 3 min
run 3 min
walk 90 sec ~I walked for 3 min again!!!
run 5 min
5 minute cool down walk
Wasn't impressive but it's in the bag!!
Kinda tired today. Went to gym last week on Mon-Wed-Fri, Sat, and Sun. Sunday I went for an entire 3.1 mile walk/run, painted, and got that "girl thing" {TMI} going on, so maybe that's why I'm so tired, I don't know!!! COUNTDOWN= just under 7weeks now!!!
Now I'm off to work on painting the bedroom. We are down to the doors and trim, BLACK!!! The room is looking HUGE and BRIGHT and has a much more calm feel about it, even with the red. I still HATE the carpet, not sure there are enough area rugs to hide that ugly ass carpet!!!! Oh well, we must all compromise.
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