If you've been following this blog for a while now, you know the story about how this whole crazy running thing started a year ago at fair, with a deal I made with the devil {my daughter!} to run the 5K at the fair, the following year. Well, I followed through, I trained, I ran, I fulfilled my obligation, I can stop any time now right... Right!!! So what exactly is compelling me to continue with something I DO NOT enjoy in the least. I've been thinking this over for a while now, and I've finally come up, what I think is, a pretty good list of reason
*I didn't actually make the goal of RUNNING the entire 5K {partly due to weather, partly cuz I just wasn't there yet} so part of me thinks I need to keep at this, at least until I can prove to myself I can accomplish the goal of RUNNING an ENTIRE 5K. I think it's important to prove something to myself!!!
*Not that I generally care what others think of me, I don't! But it would be very nice to be able to prove, to those who do NOT believe I am capable of this, that I AM!
*Along the journey to the 5K, I realized getting physically fit might be a good idea. I realized just how far out of shape, unhealthy, and overweight I really was. I'd like to live beyond the age of 45-50.
*Running does not take a tremendous amount of skill, and since I have VERY little athletic ability {although I was recently told I have good running form, HA!}, it seems the best way for me to get exercise.
*I can do it alone. I don't have to get the team together, or wait for someone to help me out, or work with a class schedule. I can go when I want.
*To learn to control my mind. I had no idea just how ADD I might actually be until I stepped foot on a treadmill. I was bored and ready to quit within the first 30 seconds. It is hard to keep your mind under control and stay focused while running. I'd like to manage to overcome this issue. I would like to finally silence that crazy bitch, self doubt, who is constantly trying to get me to quit!!
*Improving my lung capacity. When I started this I thought my chest was going to collapse within the first 30 seconds. I could slowly see the improvement in how long I could go before starting to breath really hard, and think I may just die!! Overcoming the anxiety and fear that I might drop dead of a heart attack at any moment, would be cool.
*CHOCOLATE. Let's face it, I will never really have the will power to overcome ALL of my bad eating habits. I LOVE chocolate. If I keep running, I can keep eating!!
*Nature. It's pretty cool to be out in the early morning, when the critters are out, the sun is rising and all is quiet. The crows NEVER stop by inside the gym, which is a bummer now that it's dark in the mornings, and I'm mostly back to the treadmill.
*I've lost 35 pounds, so who knows how much I could potentially lose, if I keep at this.
*It helps me de-stress, not that I really get stressed very often.
*It gives me time to think, to ponder the workings of the universe, and all the other crazy shit that goes on inside my head!!!
*My body seems to feel better, well most of the time.
* I have more energy on the days I run
*I've made myself a bit proud of my ability to push through the injury, and pain, and not make excuses to quit. So why quit now.
*The more fit I get, the more brave I get. Not sure that's a good thing for me, but it's true. I am more inclined to try things I wouldn't have before. Cuz I might have a stroke, or make a complete fool of myself-let's be honest, there's some things you just DON'T want to see a really fat, out of shape person do!! No one wants to be the EMT who has to try and shove my ass in an ambulance or the rescue worker who has to chain saw me out of some crazy place!!! No one wants to hear, I'm sorry you can't participate, you are over the weight limit. {As if it's not bad enough I'm too short to ride half the carnival rides!!} There are still a million things I won't do, just becuz of my physical limitations. I'd like to live life without limitation!!!
*I don't feel like my journey is over. I want to finish this. To see it through. I think I will know when my journey with running is over, until then, I continue.
*New clothes!! Let's be honest, there are WAY more options for cute clothes for non-chubby girls. It's sad and unfortunate but true!!!
*Tattoo's!!! No One wants to tattoo a fat chick. And this fat chick doesn't want to show off her tat's until she's not fat!! Got a cute little one all picked out, getting it very soon. Will post pics!!
*How would I entertain all of my readers, IF I stop running???
*Here comes the really hokey, deep thinker reason... And please don't misunderstand me, I would NOT EVER change a single thing about how I've chosen to live my life up to this point. I feel like up until I started this thing, I mostly lived my life for my kids and husband. They came first, before all other things, including my fitness. They are mostly grown {well with the exception of my husband!!heehee!} and don't need me much. It's time for me to take some time and do some things for myself. In the beginning, I was doing this for Maddy, but now this is all about me. I need to do this for me.
*I need to know how it feels to be alive. I want to feel alive
Okay, so I also went and grabbed a few quotes from Pinterest, cuz that's a GREAT place to find inspiration and idea's.
Reasons to be fit:
-this will become my lifestyle
-it's about time to become the best me I can be
-to show that I haven't given up on me
-to love my body as much as I love my soul {ooh that's a good one}
-I want to be strong, healthy, and happy
-to know that if it came down to it, I could knock you out!
And the one my daughter sent me...
Because the zombies won't wait for you to catch your breath. This one is especially important!!!
Alright who has missed my crazy posts that contain song lyrics??? Well Then YOU will be excited to see I am adding some to this post!!! This is a song that motivates me, kind of encompasses all the reasons I keep running, by one of my very favorite bands, Alter Bridge. I find a lot of their songs to be motivational, this song is entitled "Breathe Again"
*Tried to post the youtube link thingy, not sure it worked!
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I have played the part
I have all but lost my soul
And I have sacrificed
For what it's worth, I just don't know
In the silence of my heart
There is a distant call
Yeah
It beckons me to stand apart
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breathe again
Through the suffering
Through the misery and pain
Never anything
But the will to see the day
When the promise might be born
Light the spark within
Yeah
'Cause I can't take it anymore
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
Where I'm free to breathe again
Well I am free to roam
And set out on my own
To rise above the hands that try to hold me down
Before the end, I know I'll breathe again
To find my way
So I set out on my own
Just to breathe again
Touch the light that calls me home
Just to reach the end
I'm leaving today
I'm leaving today
I'm leaving today
How about some pics... Haven't done those in a while
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| THIS is the next tattoo I'm getting OBVIOUSLY it will only say 3.1 cuz I'll never run 26.2 miles!!! |
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| Went shopping for new jeans!! |
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| This is what 5am looks like when you get up and run!! |
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| These are some of the critters you get to see at 5am Yes, Turkeys are ugly, but still |
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| This is the B17 Bomber I climbed into would NEVER have tried that a year ago!! |
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| I want to eat more than just salad. So I continue to run! |
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| THAT's more like it!!!! |
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| Why Do I Run??? |
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