Well, I took a bit of a break this weekend. Was I busy or just lazy? Maybe a little of both. The basic facts; Friday night I went with the boys to Valley Motocross. I took our dog, Ali, that was a bit of an adventure, especially since she LOVES to chase the dirtbikes!!! I thought possibly we could walk a bit while we were there, but that just didn't work out. Then we went out to eat. Got a very excited phone call from Maddy ~SIDE TRIP~ her and her friend Lauren got backstage passes to meet/hang out with the bands!! SERIOUSLY!! How cool is that!! She was soooo freaking excited. She took NO pictures, cuz she didn't want to seem rude or stalker-ish. So she just hung out. Got a phone number from a manager, if she ever wants to get tickets to a show!!! This may seem completely out there to most people, but for my kids, kinda normal. It seems most times we go to shows they end up meeting someone VERY cool, or getting great seats or some such thing!!!
Saturday morning we got up and went to feed and water my brothers dog{brother was in the UP} and then went to see a friend in the hospital. Then we went out to eat. Then we watched the final outdoor motocross on tv and we snacked! Sunday, feed the dog again. Out to the barn with Maddy, my cousin stopped over with her 2 little children, they wanted to meet Chip{the horse} they were a little afraid, but it was cute!! I spent most of the day watching 9/11 coverage on the History and National Geographic channels. Between episodes Ryan and I got groceries. Not a really exciting weekend but that's what happened. Seems like there was a lot of eating and NO walking!!! Oh well back on track today.
I have to add this was a very strange emotional weekend for me, and part of the reason that I didn't blog. I am not a supper sappy person, but I'm not a heartless bitch either, so when it comes to things that cause me some emotional distress or confusion I find it best to keep it to myself, until I can really get a handle on how I feel and the best way to discuss it. I was worried about Ryan's good friend Mike, being in the hospital. It was a bit serious for a while but I think it's in check now. Still makes you think, we are getting older. On our way home I got a phone call from bff's husband with some horrible news. A good friend of his son, Coleton, had shot himself Friday night/early Saturday morning. {He called me cuz Shelli is in Oklahoma and he wasn't sure if he should call and ruin her trip. I said yes. She will read it on Facebook, and then be worried about Coleton, which she was/is anyway}GEEZ OH PETE'S!!! I will not exaggerate my relationship with this boy or his family. I've known him since preschool, my daughter knew him, we knew his family, and his sister has been to my house a couple of times, with her bf. But we were not close. I am not sad for myself or my children, I have no right to be. But I am terribly upset for his family and for their loss. I cant even believe how sad I am for them. I don't know if I have a right to be this sad for someone I barely know. But I am also sad and worried for Coleton. Some horrible things were said to people and their is a lot of guilt out there. I hope people can find a way to deal with this tragedy, that doesn't cause more pain for this family!! Maddy was so angry at people, she even posted on Facebook about it! It takes a lot to get Maddy ticked enough to post!! Then Sunday watching the 9/11 coverage, more sadness, but with a lot of good stuff and heroes and awesomeness too. I don't know why I felt the need to watch soooo much of it. Maybe cuz {I think I may lose my mind someday and} I want to remember this event forever. I want my kids to remember and their kids and theirs... I want my kids to grow up to be the kind of people who would stand up and be those heroes, and to raise children to be. {Hopefully we never need to find out.} I believe my husband and kids have it in them though. I learned a lot of things I had not known before these shows. I wanted to find a way to honor those lost and the heroes and military, but couldn't think of a way to do that, so I just sat and watched. I'm glad I watched, but it was just way too much emotion for me in one weekend.
~~It's amazing to me what people can overcome, and saddens me that some people just can't overcome. I am grateful I have friends and family, that I know I will always be able to turn to, to help me overcome. And I hope that if the day ever comes that they {or anyone else} need my help, I will be there for them. I hope I am that kind of person. Isn't that what being an everyday hero is about, helping those around you overcome adversity, and being the kind of people that do the right thing, and don't cause more pain than is already necessary. Shouldn't we all strive to be a hero.....
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