My Personality Disorder

If I were ever to seek out a professional opinion about my mental well being (and it's likely I should) I'm fairly certain I would be diagnosed with at least 1 personality disorder.  And that is my excuse for not blogging recently. It took me a while to wrap my head around what exactly was holding me back, but I think I've finally figured it out. So let me try to explain it to you...

I'm a share-er. I often over-share. The phase TMI, may have been invented for me.  I can't tell a story without all the details, it seems strange to me, wrong somehow. The reader needs details. I'm also honest, to a fault. And last but not least, I am a very private person. I do not like to share my deepest emotions. Those are shared with only a couple of people (you know who you are).  Yep, I'm a crazy contradiction, mentally speaking, combo those things and you have my problem... How can I ramble on about the happenings of my everyday life, without over sharing? Or telling you things that you DO NOT want to know?  Or maybe telling you things that are the honest truth, but that might offend you.  Or how do I share the everyday happenings of my everyday life, when tragic, personal, or deeply emotional things are going on, when I'm not capable of sharing my feelings. It feels dishonest to me, not to share, like lying by omission, or telling half truths. Yet I struggle to tell the story without over-sharing or hurting peoples feelings, or sharing my own. You can grasp what I'm talking about here can't you. YES, I'm a nut case.

I've written multiple blogs in the past several months, but they just sit there, waiting for me to hit the "publish" button. I can't do it. They are empty bits. No real feeling in the ramble, or too much feeling. There have been pictures taken, but very few. When I first started writing this blog, it was mostly to have someone to"talk" to besides myself. Someplace to ramble on about nothing, to share my fitness journey, my odd DIY projects, or my hobbies. But when things are going on that are stressful I tend not to do any of that "stuff" and it's hard to know what to blog about, or what not to blog about. So, I took some time off to try and figure out what I should be saying.  Honestly, I'm still not sure I have it all figured out, but I figured out enough to know what the problem was, I'm still not sure how to resolve it, but I thought I might owe it to all of you, to try and explain why I haven't been around.

So... In the next couple days, I will be posting something, most likely a bunch of pics and a summary of the happenings from the past few months. I may over share. I may keep all the details to myself. I may be brutally honest. I may offend some.  I may suffer from a personality disorder, but I will be rambling on again.